Dear Seamus,
Waiting is the hardest part.
I called home last night over Face Time and it was the first time I’d been able to get through in about 5 days. I wasn’t too worried about you as you’ve got your Nana and Granpa there and as far as I’ve been told, you were getting on like it was any other day.
I’m starting to think that maybe I’ve been kept in the dark a little bit or perhaps it’s all coming to a head. Last night, when I called, your dad yelled out to you that “mommy was on the iPad”. Usually you will come over to the screen for a moment and I get to look at your cheesy grin as we stare at each other.
But instead, you put your hands over your eyes, started to cry and walked out of the frame. It was a tough moment and it reminded me that I have a whole life waiting on me there.
Tomorrow, babe, tomorrow.
